I love the movie Disturbia... and that boy... what'shisface? Oh, his name is Max Belin.

The funny thing? He doesn't know it yet. Shhhhh.

WEIRDEST DREAM EVER.

Ok, so it's December 2006... I invited Jose + Alex to this year's Simbang Gabi and they can bring their family along. Alex went, just because he had nothing else to do, and he wanted to see me... perform. Jose was excited about the free buffet of food at the end of the mass. So yes, a bunch of people going to Simbang Gabi at Our Lady of the Lakes.. to my surprise, the Galindos showed up, and David brought along Guidry. Before the mass, I reacquainted with a few people. Ms. Crews showed up because she was Chrstina's teacher, and wanted her to go. Tommy and his parents were there because in return of making us learn about their Irish ways, might as well experience a Filipino event. Dinggin and D.5's night tonight... yepp. Nervous? Very. I'm supposed to sing the responsorial psalm and a small solo with Dinggin. I also had to carry up the traditional parole with Kyle, behind Brian and Christina, then offertory with Brian, Rizelle, and Kyle. The little Filipino kiddos that also go to OLL carried the gifts. D.5 had their own reserved spots in the front. Behind them were the Alvarezes, followed by the Kennedys, and in the opposite side were the Galindos. I don't remember where Ms. Crews was. Mass was finally over. I was still in my traditional Filipino dress.

D.5 and I headed over to the bathroom to change. This was our first real gig. We had to dance to a mix. David had to play acoustic for a song I wrote. And his band, The Clad, would have to perform because by then... they were known as the next Breaking Tides. The Kennedys couldn't stay for the potluck dinner, but excited Jose convinced the family to stay for a bit. We just came from the bathroom, sat at our reserved table to eat, and then we were minutes away from performing. People got the hint that we were gonna perform since we all wore similar costumes. Guidry, David, and I were chatting. Jose got up to throw away his trash and whispers, "Someone is staring at you." Ohhhkaaay. "Hey, aren't you that David kid?" David was surprised he still remembers him. He nodded, "Uh huh. What's up man?" Ok, they talk... blah blah blah boy talk blah boy handshake blah... "Oh, and dude, watch your balls tonight." Why would Jose say that? Guidry sees Andy, "Isn't he in drama class with us?" I had to laugh... "Chyeah, and if I don't leave you guys anytime soon, the drama's gonna start and David's balls will be in trouble." Jose was trying to tell me that Andy was teasing me again. Oh, he's funny... but must I think at this time, I still don't like David... I prolly liked him more than I did during the summer, but this time it was different... Frankie, Guidry, and David were my best guy friends. Up till that point, Andy still thinking I like David... and I kept saying I like him as friend. true true jah jah jah. I went up to him while he's sitting down... "Having a nice time, everyone?" The Alvarez being friendly, Mr. Alvarez asking what he's eating... "Pansit, a Filipino noodle dish." He likes it. Alex likes the puto, delicious rice cakes. "Oh, and Andy?" I got his attention... "In the spirit of Christmas, don't hurt anyone's balls tonight." Jose was giggling as Andy was acting confused. I walked away, but I heard a big thump, Jose saying OWWW, and Alex going "Heyyy!" I didn't have to look back. He kicked Jose. I forgot to tell them something. Walking back... "Since I'm going to perform soon, I ask if you guys hide in the crowd or stay in the back... I'll get really nervous and mess up." Obviously, stupid me, there goes Alex with his reverse psychologic response, "Sure Kimi, we'll be up in the very front!" I knew he was joking... but the other boys weren't. Jose, Abe, Andy, Guidry, and David... blending in with the crowd, but in the front, while Alex, Ms. Crews, everyone were like behind them or something. Oh gosh... with David just right there... I was really nervous. With Andy picking on me that I'll mess up, it motivated me to prove him wrong... GULP, but David still makes me wanna mess up. I didn't. And for a little punk girly like me, I danced to hip-hop pretty well. Or how they say it... I was crunk (= That "victory hug" from David... cozy. Andy saying that I've turned to the dark side, the ghetto side... I lightly punched his shoulder, and then he complimented me. Abe asking me to teach him the moves.... can't imagine him with hip-hop. Jose saying I was a baller like that... I taught him the handstand. Alex screaming my name in the crowd... suh-weet, college guy rootin for me! Guidry saying I was too cool... "sweet action".

Next up, my song with David. It was cute... mushy... adorable... emo people can't handle the fluffy clouds and flying unicorns. Haha j/k. It wasn't corny. It was so Cheyenne Kimbal-ish. Then The Clad. In this dream, Steph just appeared. I didn't see her earlier... heh. Rocking with the band... kewlies. Steph and I were The Clad's VIPs ^_^

The best Simbang Gabi ever... the next day... carolling at Dr. Galindos house. I haven't been inside since 1999 or 2000... prolly 2001. In reality, I actually SANG at David's house. A christmas carol from Home Alone, with my fellow D.5ers. Hehe yeah, even Tyler sang. Stupid bastard (=

so yah... that was my almost realistic dream. the unrealistic part was steph just appearing like that.

`<3 Kimi

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`<3 Kimi

Summer 2005 was hell. What's in store for '06? Debate talk. Chill.

Another debate talk, like the Frankie theory about him bringing me down while Andy+I were sorta unstable. But this time, I chose secret xanga for this... bc it's long, and more meaningful than those random blabs I put on my original xanga.

Enjoy.

So yeah, this morning, all of a sudden I thought of Summer '05... the shittiest summer I ever had. But I mean, it wasn't Kelcie I was concerned of. Actually, Andy called me more during her time, but Frankie+I once thought the possibility of Andy's change of behavior was dude to his break-up with Kelcie. Well, we know the truth... Kelcie thought it was a waste of time... Andy thinks she's a liar and a (beep)... I think I should cut straight to the point.

So here I am, worried that I won't be able to take one of my good (or best, but idk if he views me back as a bff) friend to Warped Tour just because of a stupid summer fling that we're assuming. But I know Andy won't do it again, or I hope so. Well, because he took it fairly mature to end his FWB with her last year. Obviously there was trashtalk against him about it too, and Bianca's own friends weren't happy about her actions too. That's when Jessica+Tati started to talk to me more. Lodi dished out details. Guys badmouthing him. Girls wondering if they can trust her again, and then hating on Andy and "protecting" her from him. Yeah, I heard of that. I guess it motivated Andy to lurk away from her because why risk it, then get jumped by the team? Touch her, and everyone finds out. I mean, even I hear about what she does to him sometimes when they swim in the same lane. But they took it mature in just being swimmates, and heck... no one hates Bianca that much anymore, Jess+Tati are tight with her again... and Andy has a new friend, Andrew, who he didn't like before... but now they're like bros sometimes. Besides the backstabbing trashtalks with the team, which is oddly normal if you say shit behind someone's back, everyone has settled... no one has to worry about Bianca getting hurt or being wild... no one hates Andy that much compared to last summer. So, back with last summer's sitch... Here I was, having no control on it because I'm not on the team... but I didn't care... the team handled the drama themselves. It wasn't pretty. But ya know, since Bianca stopped liking Andy and all, that's when it all died down. Jess+Tati are BFFLs with her again, and I'm glad. Ok, so they don't like each other anymore... that's good so far. I'm hoping Andy will take it maturely and consider those around him. Life's not one big party where you can just sell yourself out so short, being avail to someone just for the kissing and the wanting. Does he really wanna risk rep again? Having the team at him again? Coz last summer was sizzling. Like bw Bianca+me, majority of the guys chose me over her and at least 2 girls. But I didn't care about who was on my side. It was reasoning. One, it was disrespecting that she'd be all over him after we just took a break from our relationship. Two, he cheated on my best friend both times they went out. Three, she hacked on Jessica M.'s xanga for blackmail. Four, she was interfering in our relationship. Five, she accused me for interfering in hers... but little does she know that I had no problem with her when they went out previously, and that kiss on March 10... jeez, lighten up, we had interest in each other, and it can't be his fault if he wanted his first kiss from me. I didn't interfere, it was all upon free-will, what he deliberately chose to do (and takes guts to do on a first). It would be considered cheating if he lied to her saying he didn't kiss me and stuff. He was honest, and yeah I know that'd hurt her, but if guys were as sensitive as us, finding out about Gio isn't a sunny day either.

So yeah, this was sorta a pointless debate post... only coz that was soooo last year. But I'm just saying that it was brought up today. At this point, I think we know what other situations will bring us down and make us look bad, and sitches that'll make us seem great if handled well. We all have our own lives to worry about.

over and out...

`<3 Kimi-San..... lol I'm sucha dork.

SUMMER wants && hope-not-to-happens:

WANT:
[x] No drama.
[x] Chill with friends more often.
[x] Finally watch a movie with Josh.
[x] Get along more with Andy, which is good in progress =)
[x] Andrew. lol j/p
[x] Respect, and I meant that generally.
[x] Have a good time @ Warped Tour w/Andy.
[x] Get Janh an autograph from Jericho Rosales.
[x] Buy all the good bands' cds from the Philippines.
[x] Fix things with other people like Katya.
[x] Frankie to realize what the heck he's doing to himself.
[x] Talk to Andrew more often.
[x] See Brandon again, and meet Lodi && Carlos in person.
[x] A boyfriend. lol.
[x] Laguna Beach Season 2 on DVD.
[x] Watch The Hills on MTV.
[x] Keep in touch with Andy && Frankie.
[x] Audition at an open casting call for a commercial.
[x] Go to Gameworks.
[x] Help Alex. (and it still shocks me, duuude.)

HOPE-NOT-TO-HAPPEN:
[x] Drama.
[x] Repeat of last summer. (but props to Lodi for being cool)
[x] On-And-Offs unless you're dealing with a friend.
[x] Harrassment.
[x] Violence... yeah Tyler.
[x] Dadah turning emo.
[x] Lose touch with certain people.
[x] Boredom.
[x] Large-O. Don't ask.
[x] Gain weight.
[x] Ma being snoopy.
[x] Stephen && Lauren fighting again.
&& there's more, but I can't think of any right now. I don't know all my insecurities.

Keepin it real, foo.
`<3 Kimi-San forever.